Quick Thoughts

Firefly

I want to help, I love to help. It’s the very best feeling in the world!

But sometimes I do worry.

Like, what if I’m doing too much?  What if I get overwhelmed?

It’s okay, I’m not alone and the others, some of them, are always here to reassure me. 

I feel guilty sometimes because I’m happy about who we are as a system.  Because I wasn’t always here, as Firefly. I was a part of Tae, our first Host, and she was VERY depressed and would often self harm. Now, my memory of the event is hazy, but last year a lot of things happened at once and she broke down. The others stopped her and that’s when we split. Myself, my twin brother, and Glitch.  Glitch went very silent, it felt like SHE had actually died and the guilt I felt was pretty terrible. Because I was happy. Happy to accept Illyria, Star, and Vixen as who they were. Parts of me. Of us.

Is it okay to be happy as a system?