I miss her so much

Hey I don’t have DID but I had a friend that did (she’s the one that sent me the link to this site). I met her at the start of this month so we only spent a few weeks together but they were the happiest weeks of my life. I liked her so much (and she clearly liked me too). Whenever I was with her it was like I was in heaven, and whenever I wasn’t with her I just couldn’t stop thinking about her and when I’d get to see her again. We would hold hands while walking together outside and cuddle for hours while watching TV together inside. I was the happiest girl in the world 🙂

But then everything changed like a week ago when her two co-hosts fused. Now her new personality doesn’t like me at all, said she doesn’t wanna be friends anymore, doesn’t even wanna talk to me anymore. The person I loved before is gone, doesn’t exist anymore 🙁 Now I’m grieving like I lost a loved one, cause I basically did. I’ve barely gotten any sleep the past couple nights cause I’ve just been up all night crying. Have barely been able to eat cause my stomach hurts and I feel like I’m gonna throw up. I can’t finish the show we started watching together cause it just makes me way too sad thinking about how much I enjoyed watching it while cuddling with her and how we’ll never get to do that together again 🙁 I can’t stop staring at the picture we took together, we both look so happy together in it, and while the face in that picture may still exist, the person behind it unfortunately does not anymore, and is probably never coming back 🙁

Thanks for reading, I think writing this out for people who will actually understand really helped. Cause I can’t really explain this to anyone I know cause none of them know anything about DID so they wouldn’t understand at all.