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Until recently, in therapy for dissociative issues. Currently in search of a new therapist.

The denial is strong. But I am either psychotic (and my therapist said I wasn’t, which was extremely validating) or I have at least 4 parts that have shown up eagerly, and either literally taken over my body, held my hands (how?? but ok), or directly communicated back and forth with me. I am certain there are at least a few more, who I have heard, felt, or ‘seen’ like in my minds eye? But those 4 have either been with me my entire life and I finally have a word for them, or they’ve given me impossible to ignore or deny signs of their existence.

Their presence combined with a major decline in my quality of life brought me to subject myself to another round of therapy where I felt too invalid to talk about much of it over a year and then…I lost/quit my job, my therapist quit her entire practice, life got in the way and I now need to find a new therapist who compassionately understands complex trauma. So annoying. Anyway.

Probably overexplaining. Let me just stop.