I am not a charismatic 20 something that has thousands of followers. I’m an extremely overweight mess in her late 40s that unconsciously pulls out her hair when stressed. And while I’m sure y’all will be friendly, I have a lot of social anxiety. I’m afraid that I’ll disappoint people who show up. I’m also afraid that I’ll be so nervous I’ll switch out, which sucks because this project is my baby, and I want to be present.
I’m going through a period of insomnia and higher than normal anxiety, likely because of the holidays and the fact that we’re going down on a psych medication we’re trying to get off of. So yeah, I’ll have to brush my hair just right so you don’t see the bald spot where I’ve picked at my scalp until its bled. I may fall asleep at the keyboard because I’ve had so little sleep. (I’m averaging between 1 and 3 hours a night, so I’m exhausted this week, but my mind won’t shut off. ) I may switch out to a more social part… but damn it, I’m going to try! 🙂
The hangout video will NOT be uploaded to YouTube or shared, so if you want to be a part of it, you need to be there live. It’s purpose is not to generate content, but to attempt a genuine connection with other people dealing with similar stuff. So come as you are, you don’t need to be a charismatic 20 something either (not that there’s anything wrong with that). I can’t promise it’ll be great, but unless you’re a troll, I promise to do my best to accept you just as you are. You are valid, you are valuable and you are welcome here.