To Remind Her, And To Remind Me
A psychiatrist has diagnosed me with “Features of Dissociative Identity Disorder” in addition to my diagnosis of Dissociative Motor Disorder / Conversion Disorder. She was…
Author: clover
Who Am I
My job is to convince people that Clover is still alive. This body changes, grows hair, gains and loses weight, bleeds and heals; inconceivably, undeniably…
Dear Hidden One : It Will Be A Long Road
This is the start of a series of letters I am writing to the girl I was. She is a survivor of overlapping trauma that…
Why Won’t This Awfulness Go Away
As implied by the cheery title, things are not going well. First off. Getting. Off. Medication. Sucks. Getting off medication when you don’t have a…
Trauma-not-trauma
I can’t speak for everyone, but I’ve seen quite a lot of people worried that their trauma ‘wasn’t bad enough’ to cause a dissociative disorder.…
Twenty one
I’m twenty one today. It’s not ideal. I‘m recovering from chest surgery, in the midst of a bad bout of IBS, and weaning myself off…
Meet Snow
Snow is a deeply depressed young woman. She holds our body differently, ramrod straight, a regal stance with her head lifted and chin tilted high.…