AyameKurenai
“Loved” but am I?
We definitely feel this post needs trigger warnings with just the reactions in our own system. We talk about complicated parental “love” and the neglect/abuse…
F*** today
In the last 24 hours we’ve gotten maybe 2 hours of sleep and in the 24 before that, maybe 4. Why the fuck can’t we…
Always December
A couple of days ago, I would have given anything to get out of front. And I did try to switch others in with minimal…
Cassandra Cain Appreciation
And the best brothers I just think she’s really cool and bad ass, and it’s cool that in some comics she doesn’t speak or has…
Derealization and Dissociation
We’ve been learning just how bad our derealization and dissociation really are recently. Nothing really feels real. We know it’s real, but is it really…
It’s hard to fear an after-death hell when it feels like you’re living in one.
Didn’t realize dealing with health insurance and medical appointments would be a hell like this, but here we are. Sunday it seemed like we had…
The Ships Have Come to Carry You Home
Our godmother died this past Sunday. We don’t really feel anything…yet… It’s not because we weren’t close to her, we were. I think it just…
To Our Therapist
[Maybe this will help us organize our thoughts and come up with a better solution than running away] [Meant to post this last week but…
Emotions suck
I hate feeling emotions, but I hate not feeling them. I feel broken and like I lost something I’ll never get back. Yesterday things happened…