Today was originally supposed to be the day I returned to work. However, we still haven’t stabilized on meds yet. The switch from Zyprexa to Vraylar took a slight detour towards Manic St a week or two ago when we almost bought a new Jeep. Mind you, we work remotely, have no commute, hardly ever drive, and our current Jeep has less than 60k miles. Do we need a new Jeep? Hell no. But, the dreaded “No Sleep ‘Til Jeep!” monster came to visit and even got a fully approved car loan lined up. Fortunately, that didn’t happen. Mainly thanks to being physically disabled – it isn’t easy for us to just walk around a dealership picking out cars. But wow, after so long of being depressed, that was a change. PsyDoc said, “Hmm”, made another medication tweak, and did the paperwork for me to be out of work until next month while I adjust to the adjustment of the adjustment.
So now I’m waiting to hear from work if they approve of me being out another month or if they will cut their losses and let me go. I’m out of FMLA time, so legally, they can fire me. Will they? I don’t know. Do I think I have a choice? Not really. I haven’t even stabilized on a regular sleep schedule yet, much less gained the stability to work brain-intensive tasks for 40++ hours a week. I still have unread emails in my personal Inbox just because they are too long, and my concentration is shot to hell. In the past two weeks, I’ve bounced between a “No Sleep ‘Til Jeep!” lack of sleep and sleeping 20+ hours a day. I wish I were ready, but I’m not.
That’s disappointing. :-/
And now it’s time for a nap. 🙂Published in