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Cha Cha Cha Changes and Celebrations

We reached 250 site members while I wasn’t looking.  We have regular bloggers, an active Discord and things are steadily growing at a healthy pace.  Not too fast, not too slow.  Life in the .cafe is good, let’s celebrate! Some pruning was needed, however.  The forums and social groups never

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Do We Have A Disorder?

I have half an hour before I’m scheduled to play Magic The Gathering with friends online, so here goes a quick shot blog entry… I’ve been wondering if we have or will ever reach a point when we don’t have a disorder. Per the DSM-5-TR, one of the diagnostic criteria

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I was doing it all wrong (pt.1?)

The past year or more has been spent in a huge effort of deconstructing a whole load of things I had been told/consumed from the general public on how you are ‘supposed’ to approach DID/OSDD. I followed these guides, I did the things I was told to do. Over time

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My Best Friend

I hope that we are able to regain more memories of partner system soon. It’s frustrating, because so much of the time that we spent together was when abusers were nearby. So it’s hard to get those memories back, at least in a clear/whole state. We’ve remembered a lot of

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I Killed Our Father Two Nights Ago…

Apologies for the clickbait title, but even though he died two years ago this week, in a way, I *did* kill him Monday night in therapy. We found that one of our child alters was still living in our parent’s bedroom with our father abusing her, and it was time

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Random Shuffle

One of the biggest “tells” of who in T-E-C is out front is what music we listen to. There is crossover in our tastes, but in general, Saoirse isn’t on a Bjork binge, Sharon isn’t throwing up horns to Dimmu Borgir, etc. We tolerate each other’s music, but each prefers

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Derealization and Dissociation 

We’ve been learning just how bad our derealization and dissociation really are recently. Nothing really feels real. We know it’s real, but is it really real? Stuff is real, mostly, while we’re touching or interacting with it (including people), but then immediately stops being real once we stop interacting, or

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Tired

I don’t know why, but waking up today and getting ready for work is a LOT harder to do than most days. Even on the days where we don’t want to go and are in literal tears over the matter, we tend to be able to feel awake enough. Maybe

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SYSTEMLOG:000001

A rough “meet the system” **We will add and make changes to this as we can and as alters feel comfortable** “The Nomads” —> Possum [they/it] Age: 22 -fem-leaning goblincore trash gremlin -permanently exhausted -nocturnal by design -scavenger of trash -will eat weird foods “just cuz” -used to put rocks

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